Painful heart

This is for you who thinks you’re not worth it — but you are. Here’s to all of your blank nights, blank days and blank souls. Cheers! Let’s drink to all your sadness. All your lonely days, and your lonely nights. Let’s drink to all your misery; let’s drink to all our misery — all at once, all at the same time. Every time you think you’re alone, you’re not. I’m here with you, we’re here with you. Embrace the sadness, embrace the dark. There’s no light, there’s no happy ending. It’s just you and me; it’s just you and the rest of the world. Everybody is sad, there’s always something missing. Happiness is just around the corner, but you keep reminding me of what sadness feels like.

Skydiving

I feel my heart bursting; it’s beautiful, intense and painful at the same time. Past, present and future — together, apart, all mixed up. Where have I seen these promises and dreams before? I know where my fears hide; I know every disguise, every dark corner of my broken mind. I’m scared, I’m thrilled and I’m everything in between; it’s all or nothing — a deep, silent ocean and the wind caressing the trees, or a beautiful and loud thunderstorm ripping the skies apart. Amidst all the chaos, I found a way back to myself: a path I’ve never thought I’d be able to choose, but I did. And it’s so beautiful, so perfectly right and good for me that it makes me shiver, it makes me wanna lose control. It makes me wanna jump and take a leap of faith — but what if I fall straight to the ground again? See, it’s too late, because I’m already falling. I’m in the air, my arms are wide open and so is my heart. I’m skydiving. I’m skydiving with you.

Decisions, decisions

Life would be so much easier if we didn’t have to make decisions all the time, right? Unfortunately, we can’t. According to studies, “a typical adult makes 27 judgments a day and 773,618 decisions over a lifetime”. Some are easy to make, others seem to be impossible — but they’re not. When you decide on something and have the will to carry on with your choice, life gets a lot easier. No matter how hard it was to decide. How many times have you thought there was no way out? When you fully accept your decisions, your choices and move on with your life, you will see there is no coming back to the dark place you were before. Of course we make a good amount of bad decisions — everyone does. That’s when life gives us the famous “second chance”, so we can learn from our mistakes and make better decisions for the future. Don’t blame yourself too much for the bad things you’ve done — these are the things that will teach you the most. Also, try to respect other people’s decisions, it’s their lives they are trying to rebuild.